On the left-hand path, one must accept that both positive and negative experiences will happen. This is a concept that is hard for some practitioners to understand, but it’s a deep reality. Although we prefer to have positive experiences, it’s the negative ones that ultimately teach us the most valuable lessons. I consider this a form of spiritual gnosis refinement, allowing our understanding and awareness to adapt to our current reality. As we move forward in life, we begin to analyze things differently, act accordingly, and plan efficiently. Well, this is the ideal scenario but each individual is different and life always changes around us. Nonetheless, one must accept the circumstances and strive forward.

As a practitioner for many years, I have seen my gnosis go through its phases. At the beginning of my journey, I was timid and very wary of what could transpire. Each book, article, or PDF I read contained valuable information, but I was determined to learn by doing. I figured out early that for my spiritual gnosis to achieve a high level, I had to learn by physical experience as well as establish a spiritual foundation. This way of thinking came from my past, spiritual experiences and it provided a foundation. With time, I understood that I had the power to manifest a reality but that what happened in that reality was out of my control. I could control some individualistic scenarios, but not the collective outcome. 

Part of this evolving, spiritual refinement phase were also the people in my life. Family, friends, co-workers, practitioners, etc.; each person had a role. I experienced lessons upon lessons in diverse circumstances, and each one added to my growth. Most were positive, some were negative. Looking at this from a broader perspective, I also realized that all of these individuals were also learning lessons in their life. They had to go through their ups and downs, and manage their lives in the best way they could. Spiritual refinement, as a result, is both individualistic and collective. Sometimes we come across left-hand path practitioners and occults who decided to cut cords with others, and we must accept this as well. Consider this a physical/spiritual refinement that can provide positive or negative results. 

The older I am getting, the more value I place on my physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual growth. I’m cutting things out of my life as well as adding things that provide effective results. In the past, I did not favor chaos magick; now I embrace it and love every aspect of it. I have added more divination practice to strengthen my current skills and possibly obtain new ones. Even my writing took a “backseat approach” for a while, but now it’s one of my most effective tools. Music has always been a passion of mine, and although I’m not a professional musician by any means, my passion for it keeps me creating and editing my material. 

One important factor that has taken YEARS to refine is not caring what people think about me. This is not easy, by far, but it’s a working progress. I’m not perfect, nor do I want to be. Although I am a spiritual person, I still possess a human body with humanistic traits. Part of the refinement process in this area is also accepting the fact that not everyone is as respectful as I am. Disrespect, drama, and unprofessionalism are triggers that can lead me into a darker mindset and approach. Balance and grounding are perfect tools for me to control these triggers, but again, it’s not easy. Thanks to the left-hand path, I have been able to refine this area of my life.

Lastly, I want to state that there are many tools out that can assist the practitioner. Spiritual refinement begins with the self, and it’s important to have a better understanding of who we are and what we are composed of astrologically. The best tool that I have used recently is my natal chart. I have been able to see how my sign, planets, and astrological houses contribute to who I am. I highly recommend using one of the free reports available on cafeastrology.com or alabe.com. Focus on your growth and do the work; you will discover more about yourself than anyone ever will. Hail the Ancients!